The Waiting Game

You know what I hate....waiting! God knows when he created me he shorted me on patience. I hate waiting for anything that is "good" or "important". For example, I hate waiting for Thursdays to come around when Grey's Anatomy is supposed to be good, I hate waiting for trips to Disney World, I even hate waiting for my W-2s. (I have Turbo Tax up and ready. Why does it take 4-6 weeks to get a W-2?) Anyway.....as you can imagine, I really hate waiting for grades or test scores. I always have.

Some of you have called and asked how I did on the teacher content exam yesterday and the answer is, I really don't know. I don't have a good feel. I honestly don't have the feeling of horror that comes with knowing you didn't pass but I also am not confident I passed either. At this point, I wouldn't be surprised either way. Some of parts of the exam were much easier than expected (i.e. Math) and others were a lot more unfamiliar than I expected (i.e. Social Studies and Science). I use the word unfamiliar rather than hard as I think the questions might have been conquerable if I had known the material or terms. Social Studies, unfortnately, had a lot more Texas history that I had been exposed to on previous exams or in my studies. Science had a lot of terms I had never seen - not even in my study guide. It's hard to use process of elimination when you aren't even sure what to be eliminating. I did take my time and worked through what I was confident in and focused on the rest at the end. I took 4 hours and 15 minutes (of the 5 hours) so I definitely made sure not to rush. I only hope my efforts were enough. I have prayed and prayed that all I need is a 240 (out of 300). I do not need a 241 or 242 - just a 240. I even gave God permission to change some of my answers to get me to 240. (Can you tell I'm desperate?)

So...that's the exam in a nutshell. The state board says I should have my grades within 7 business days. The online community says computer grades are available within 48 hours. More likely, it is somewhere in between. I will be sure to let you know. I know if I pass I will be elated and if I don't, you'll be able to hear me sobbing from here. As for now.....let the waiting game begin.

A Chapter Closes

Today a chapter has closed in my life. After 7 years, I have left BMC Software, Inc. Although BMC has brought me some great opportunities, it has also brought many frustrations - especially in the recent years. As with most things in my life, I do not regret my time there nor do I think it was a waste. In fact, it was just the opposite - another stepping stone on my path to maturity.

I must admit that I was not sad to walk out the door for the last time. If anything, I was elated. It was as if a weight had been lifted off me. In retrospect, I suspect my heart had not been there for many years - possibly even before Randy (the best boss ever!) left last February.

It feels strange to not have a job at the present moment. I have worked since I was 15. But I am going to enjoy this time of unemployment. I am sure I will be ready to return to work soon enough.

4 Weeks and Counting

Well, we are in count down mode. Four weeks from today is my expected due date. Now as we all know, babies come whenever they want to and I sincerely hope that Reese does not wait 4 weeks. But for now, all we can do is say 4 weeks left.

For those who remember, Bailey was 9 days early. She was originally due October 14th and came on October 5th. I'd like to believe Reese will follow the same pattern and make her debut somewhere around February 4th or 5th.

Let's keep our fingers crossed. We will keep you posted!